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"The magic of water has been in my life for years now as I wake up every day to behold the beautiful sight of Mother Nature..."-Linda Amato
As I sit here in my library and fill with a heart full of gratitude for the days that are moving me forward. I am blessed. My life is wondrous. I am connected to Spirit. This belief of mine although alternative and difficult for many to comprehend has been rooted out of the depth of my soul from many lifetimes, I believe.
I can remember the day even at this moment when I wondered if there was 'more?' I felt there had to be more to this experience we all call life. It was then that I begged for guidance in 2003 which led me to today.
"If you can't be in awe of Mother Nature, there's something wrong with you." -Alex Trebek
It seems I was never truly aware but I did know I was not alone so I just moved one step in front of the other being a good girl.
Quiet and silent was my belief, after all "Silence is golden!" As a child I was stronger than my brother and mother. I could handle more at a young age. There was an essence within that told me to be kind, loving and helpful.
Never ever was I to be confrontational. Why? I wonder today why I could not have the power of speech until I was fifty. My answer this day is because it served me well to be silent and allowed me to be awakened to my truth. I know this because I believe there is a reason for everything.
"The most important this is to enjoy your life - to be happy - it's all that matters." -Audrey Hepburn
Raised in a time of change I never chose to be a rebel or hippie yet, I felt I was never in the box. I obeyed my parents, elders, and everyone.
I questioned if they were right in my head but I never questioned them. There was always that inner essence that guided me daily.
Human behavior is something I delight in and since I began studying with Deborah King in 2012 I have learned the many reasons we as humans do what we do. At my age today: as a daughter, wife, mother, and grandmother I realize today the importance of women in my life.
I have collected a tribe of my own that I have fallen in love with and I believe it is my way of being of service to them by sharing all that I can that is of alternative belief. To begin with, there is no right and no wrong way of living YOUR life experience. How can there be such a belief? We are here because we choose to be here on this planet at this time. We are a combination of soul and human. Our soul part is love and our human part is ego. That is where the battle begins.
"We do not remember days, we remember moments." -Cesare Pavese
We choose which one we are going to nourish daily by our thoughts, words and actions. What do you believe today that is different from what you believed yesterday? Change is constant because there is no way we can stay exactly the same in our thoughts, words and actions unless we fuel a life dedicated to negativity, unhappiness, regret and anger as our path because of something that happened a long time ago to us.
As beings of love and light it is very difficult to choose the path of the ego/human belief daily. It is frustrating to realize that being angry or unhappy is not our nature. Especially since love seeps in when we bask in the beauty of Mother Nature, see or hold a baby, a sunset, smell a rose, fall in love, make love, celebrate a wedding, or birthday or just receive a compliment.
My question to you then is why not choose to nurture your soul/love part more often. When we choose to love we choose to transition and grow higher on the path of our journey. To choose love we must forgive ourselves and anything that happened by another to us in our past. We all have a choice to live as we choose to live so go for it! Just let go of anything that no longer serves you today.
"It is as grandmothers that our mothers come into the fullness of their grace. - Christopher Morley
I have chosen love and I believe that I have been able to nourish and nurture my soul daily. Is it easy, you ask? I can honestly say it is getting easier!
The wonder of my life is the children that I share my life with from the ages of 8, 6, 4, 3, 2, and 1 month. It is magical to hold a baby in your arms and know she is heaven sent as an angel to share her love and light in the world.
To talk to a child and listen, really listen to what scares him or what fills him with joy. To wrap your arms around a sleeping child and carry him into his home to rest all toasty and really heavy.
To bathe a child and laugh as he laughs at the wonderment of water that fills him with delight.
To watch the ballerina from within surface in her as she spins around or sings a song. Then there is the child that fills your heart to bursting for the simplicity of his outlook on life. Yes, I am truly blessed.
I remember my children growing up and I always took time to listen to their stories and imagine today if you can, because they still reach out to me to tell me their stories. As a mother, I learned the greatest of lessons from my mom to love unconditionally all, especially the children. As I sit here and type I wonder what will be because my grandbabies are coming over to go in the pool and I am ready to play and swim with them because they are pure beings of love and light still and I know it.
Yet, I also notice the changes that are screaming to be let free by them to be able to just be. Many children today are new souls and are clueless as to how to live in our world They need us as old souls to teach them. What better way to teach them than to love them unconditionally, hear them and explain life to them.
"A house needs a grandma in it." -Louise May Alcott
I'm amazed at the love that fills my heart for these grandbabies that are being raised by my children. I reflect back on my days of being their mom and truly can write I don't know how I did it, except for the one fact that I loved every moment. I enjoyed being a mom and all it entailed! I live in a very large home that most days now is quiet. There is no more laughter, crying, yelling or playing.
Yet in my minds eyes, I can almost see them all at the dinner table. Having dinner when they were older was my favorite time as we sat for hours discussing their day. Today I believe I raised four amazing children because I simply took the time to really hear what they had to say.
Now the voices of six grandbabies fill my home when they visit and sadly, I know the silence will return when they leave. The beauty of my life is that I enjoy every day just looking outside my kitchen to the love of Mother Nature that has comforted me all these years.
Meditate. Pray. Journal.